God's Design in 2009

Thinking about the New Year, I realize that I really am ready to WELCOME it! I am waiting with open arms and a ready heart to embrace all the change and newness. While it's not a new beginning, it is serving the purpose of the "easier way to carry on" I expressed in a former post. It is an excuse to not only buoy up and finally make the decisions I have been putting off, to fulfill bigger and better resolutions, but also to learn to accept. I not only choose to embrace what comes my way and what change springs itself upon me, but to embrace myself. I find I can be accepting of other people, but when it comes to myself I have little patience. Not that I regularly berate myself, but I simply tend to disregard my thoughts as either unimportant or too trivial to pay attention to. I am proud of my dreams, but my practical side shoves them into a cage, only to be let out to get some much-needed exercise on occasion. My mistakes, my choices which create difficult outcomes, my shortcomings, my mannerisms, my actions, my personality, my whole being is longing for acceptance. Whose isn't? Why not forget trying to find acceptance through others eyes when I can give it what it needs myself. Why not like myself the way I am, because that's how God wants us to view ourselves. Of course improvement is needed, but it is so much easier to be better and kinder when one doesn't feel threatened. I find this concept very freeing. With my approval and God's acceptance, I think this year had better watch out.

I feel like the cover of a comic book, with the me being the superhero clad in flamboyant costume exploding through the cover, captured in a kung-fu pose, ready to face all evil forces and terrible foes. With my new found strengths my muscles bulge, my agility increases, and my eyes glint with a terrible sparkle of joy, energy, truth, and strength for whatever attempts to thwart my happiness. The fire within me has been rekindled, bursting forth into ardent flame. I have not regained my strength, my strength has regained me. Look out world, I am waking.

Dreams of Wandering

I don't need a new beginning...I need an easier way to carry-on! I want to hit the ground running. No that's not true. I want to hit the ground walking. I want to walk and meander down streets and through towns and cities and meet new people and smell different air and experience different cultures and smile at strangers' little children. I want a sense of newness...of life foreign to me. I want to be out of my comfort zone but not too uncomfortable. I want to be on edge, but not over the edge. It's rather exciting actually, the thought of packing a backpack and then just walking. I think it would do my soul good. Bring a Bible, a book, a toothbrush... And roam the country. I would love to do that. I don't think I would get far on my own...I like to be in contact with people. I just enjoy things better when there's someone to share it all with. But the main attraction is just the freshness of life. The unknown is drawing me. I want to explore, to travel, to see the things I've never seen...only heard of. One day. One day I will run to my car and jump in it, start the ignition and drive drive drive to never never land.

I wonder how long never never land will wait for me.

What Ships Are For

A ship is safe in harbor, but that's not what ships are for. William Shedd

Sailing Into the Sunset

Life Is Good!!

iiit's summer!!

Bullfighters

Nobody ever lives their life all the way up except bullfighters. -Ernest Hemingway

End of All Things

NOTICE: I'm taking a semi-permanent hiatus to blogging. Semi-permanent because I am not deleting it, and perhaps someday a blogging whim will strike me and the craziness will begin anew. In Arnold Schwarzenegger speech: Awl be bawk. (Insert a "maybe" between "Awl" and "be.")

Tagged.

Why not grab a blogging opportunity when it comes your way?

I HAVE BEEN TAGGED! And I am going to tag seven more people...*evil laughter ensues.*

Each person tagged must list seven random facts about themselves, as well as the rules of the game on their blog. Then tag seven other people and write their names on your blog. You have to leave a comment on their blog so they know they've been tagged and have to read your blog.

1. I am taller than Tom Cruise

2.My thumbs are double jointed

3.If the light switch plate has multiple switches, they have to all be pointing in the same direction or I'll go insane. I'll even run around the room to make sure that all the plates have them in the same direction.

4.I broke two nails today.

5.I just got a foot cramp.

6. Oh to groove half as well as George Clooney in O Brother, Where Art Thou. That's my lifelong ambition. :P

7. I am addicted to depressing books that leave me moaning on my bed with the utterly wonderful agony of it all. (Wuthering Heights comes to mind.) However, I have yet to throw myself on my bed and groan. It would have to be pretty bad for me to do that. I'm more likely to do it with a cheesy novel than a sad book.

And, I am tagging:

Melody!!
Big Sis
Zan
Kayla
Stephanie
Hillary J.
CDS

(Here's hoping I beat Aaron in finishing my post first. I was writing fast so I would have more options of people to tag.) :D

Now I'm going to R-U-N-N-O-F-T!